i've been reading some interesting stories recently, and something cause a spark to flare up in my mind. "what do i want to do before i die?" i know i'm really young to be thinking about such things, but some things i think i couldn't bear to miss out on. so i've decided to make an "experience bucket list". things i want to be a part of before i depart. :)

• kiss someone in the rain. i've always wanted to, and you know what, i want to liplock someone while the sky is crying, and i'm proud of it!
• do something unforgettable to someone, even if no one else ever knows about it besides that person, including me. ^^
• be an influence, start a movement, help shape a generation where narrowmindedness and comformity has become acceptable instead of the unacceptable it is.
  
• make peoples' days. make someone smile when no one else can, turn someone's attitude around when they're having to worst day of their life. make someone SMILE, if only for a second, because it's an action so magical and full of life, and we don't take part in it often enough. and do it over and over and over and over again.
• i want to paint or sketch something that will hang in someone's home. even if it's my own. ^_~
• even if i become famous {which i HIGHLY doubt}, i always want to be ME. i don't want to become a pompous little brat who's so full of herself. i want to be a lovely little pixie of a creature that always does something you're not expecting, and can switch between sweet and devilish in the space of a few seconds. [and by the way, if this ever happens, i've already decided, i will hang out with my fans, take pictures with them, and sign things for them. because inside i'll still be the fangirl i am now. i might have to adopt a you sign mine, i'll sign yours policy. xD]

(i think i might get a book for my fans to sign. :D you know how EPIC that would be? and when i get sad, i'll just look at all the sweet notes they've left me. why hasn't anyone THOUGHT of this? hmmm... i'll look into it. and find something that might make me famous one day. who knows? i might become an interior decorator or something one day.)

• i want to design some clothes that someone just HAS to have. and you know what? i just might give it to them. :D [you should know that i feel like the joker telling people that gotham deserves a better class criminal. and i'm going to give it to them. ;)]
  
• i want to get married and live in an apartment with my life partner. :) and til death do us part.... and i want to do this all in a retro thrift wedding dress. oh, heck, yes.
• i'd like to take some professional photos with someone like doe deere. ^^ i've got a knack for angles you know, and she's one of my greatest influences. she's funky, outstanding, unique, and oh-so-loveably colorful {& we haven't even STARTED on her clothing choices. ;)}
• I want to publish something worth publishing. Whether it be photographs, a short story, sketches, paintings, a novel, a poem, i don't care. :) and i wouldn't mind if i met some of my authoristic heroes either. ^_~
• I want to create makeup styles so crazy and amazing that people whisper as i walk past. and then ask me where i'm going, or why i'm dressed up. and i'll tell them the truth. it's because i'm 10% crazy, 90% fun, and 100% awesome. you can quote me on that if you like. ^_~
• I want to dress in something fun, something that makes me happy, every day possible. why not?
  

So what do YOU want to do? Comment if you like darlings. ^_^

"And anyone who wanted to criticize me for forgiving him at that second can go to hell because when you get that feeling in your stomach, and when you can do nothing but feel for someone, you do forgive them, because if you didn’t, you’d kill yourself hating them."
“Fear is the heart of love.”
http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2144375/1/Agony
the story that inspired my list. it might not be your style, but i think it's pretty darn amazing. :)